Kazism <~ThReE~>

In the past, when United Kingdom wasnt so united.. =p England and Scotland have their own rulers. They have their own political agenda and they were always fighting for supremacy among themselves. At the same time, they both have plans to gobble up the other kingdom.

After some time of preparation and commotion between the 2 kingdoms, England finally led a warring party into the borders of Scotland's.

The King of Scotland tried his best to defend himself from the elite English army but to no avail. The English was led by a great general and also many well equipped knights. It was just too much for Scotland's inferior army to defend against. The war raged on in Scotlands borders... after 5 defeats, The King of Scotland turned his tail and hid away from the English Crusaders. Under dire states, he hid himself in an old fallen castle.

The castle was old and torn. It as nothing compared to his previous lavish and well decorated castle which he used to stay in. Irregardless of this downfall, he knew that he'll be safe for the time being from the English attackers.... with this, his mind eased and he went into a deep slumber.

When the King of Scotland awoken some time later, he saw that there was a spider on the wall. The spider looked as though it's gonna build a nest here in this torn castle.

The King at this time is almost bored to death. He could not withstand not having his royal jester and courtesan entertaining him... so his attention naturally went to the spider who's building it's web on the wall. Not long after... the spider began it's conquest to knit the web... soon after, the spider finished knitting the web.. and it looks as though its ready to start the web netting conquest to feed and began its life! The king of Scotland suddenly felt that he's even worst than the spider, he has became a coward with no where to go .... in hiding... With this, The King felt a burning anger in him...

After fuming mad for awhile, The King had an evil idea... Since i'm homeless and defeated, i'll destroy your nest! So thinking... the king thwart the spider's web with his fingers. And he think to himself... "now i'll see wat u're gonna do about this! heehhehe!"

The spider didnt seem to be suprised nor in shock with this sudden intrusion which destroyed his web-his home. All the spider did was quickly mend the holes and heal the damaged inflicted parts. The spider work swiftly with amazing dexterity! Soon, a new web was born!

The Scottish King has been observing the spider all this while and he pondered to himself..." I wonder if this little critter has suffered the same plight which i've inflicted to him earlier on, did it not surrender but instead, moved on with utmost patience and peseverence? Would it ever lose it's confidence??"

To confirm this, the king extend his "finger of destruction" again.

This time, the action of the spider was totally the same from the last one. It quickly mend the web asap without any sense of giving up nor slowing down. The spider didnt cry nor gave up! It did not stopped mending the web nor did it find a new place to build the web. instead, it looked so full of spirit and will to mend back the damaged web! Now, the suprised one turned to be the King.

The king then exclaimed aloud after witnessing this.. "Alright then, if this pathetic little being could proof to me that its noble and would not surrender to failures, i vow to regroup my army and fight to death with the English invaders!!!"

The King repeated the whole process of destroying the spiders web again and again, the results was uncanny. The results were always the same. The spider never hesitated once on mending its kingdom! THrough all this, THe King of Scotland suddenly felt a huge respect surge into him for this little spider. He couldnt bear to break the spider's web anymore. At the same time, he himself took up his courage and decided to regroup all his best man to head towards the direction of the invaders' camp! With him, carries the determination to retrieve his mother land from unwanted company!

This time, he sat with his best generals, planned everything through and through. Failure wasnt an option. It meant death. So the King of Scotland waited and laid an ambush to the more superior English Crusaders. At last, it was a stunning victory for the Scots. The English, seeing that defeat was eminnent, retreated with haste.

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The ocean has tide and waves, it has low tides and high tides. So its natural that our life can never be smooth sailing! Everyone should learn to fail! Rather, to face failure and embrace it as a stepping stone to success! When your hopes are dashed, its ok to retreat for the time being, lick your wounds and prepare for another final assault! Thats not stupidity! That... my fellow partners... is strategy!

Kazism <~TwO~>

Long ago, in a far away land, there lay a special house atop a hill. It does not carry any chemical or metallic installment and its made totally out of natural building material. People that stays inside need oxygen to be pumped in for anyone to survive in the house. And there's no way out except through emailing or calling out from inside the house.

Miss W stays in this house. During when Miss W was young, she was a very beautiful girl. She enjoyed many things and was skilled in many things in life. Near the house she stays that time, there's a hill. There was once Miss W came back with some worms stuck at her shoes, so she took an insecticide and sprayed it on her shoes... But while spraying, she accidentally sprayed it on her leg. After this incident, there was some rashes growing on the spot she sprayed... but little did she know that this is gonna destroy her life foreva. As a matter of fact, the insecticide contained some chemical thats very harmful to Miss W's immune system. After this, Miss W's immune system broke down. She was allergic to perfume, soap and anything she got in touch with, even the air she breathes may well make the last of her.

This is a case of a syndrome that has no cure yet. It kills slowly as Miss W's immune system break down slwoly day by day until she dies. For the 1st few years of this allergy, Miss W's condition didnt look good. When she sleeps. her saliva drools profusely and uncontrollably through her mouth, her urine was greenish, her sweat and passing motion hurts her back so much it made scars out of it. All this made Miss W's life unbearable. It was miserably torturing.

Soon after that, her father made a room with copper and glass to make her a room with minimised air exposure... A paradise away from any potential bacteria infection. Her drinks must be sterilised, and her food must be organic and without and chemical in it.

Miss W hide like this for 8 years. She cant go out cuz the air outside will kill her. her room was bare, she couldnt listen to any music, she cant feel the hot sun shining on her, she cant feel the river at her feet. She suffered from extreme boredom and lonliness and she cant even afford to cry for doing so many endanger her life... cuz tears coming out is the same as sweating, it may blind her.

Irregardless of all this, Miss W stood tall. Instead of giving up on life and prayed to die, she fought for the rights for other victims like her in the world who suffered from the same syndrome. She held anti-chemical campaign and she established global anti-chemical association to fight against unethical coporate doers from utilising potential poisonous chemicals in their products. This campaign, led my Miss W was wholly supported by the government, but also the environment activist.

Miss W, who stayed alone in the poison-less room was never lonely anymore. Instead, she was full of rightiousness and a sense of crusade. She has found a sense of living in her life!

There was once, some reporters interviewed her on the phone and she told them in a very calm soothing voice... "When i was at the peak of my beauty, i was hit by this uncurable allergy, its a vile plague no one should suffer from. I've wallowed in the dark, i cant feel the warmt of the sunshine, she cant communicate with anyone directly and she can never smell any kind of smell in her again. The room she stay in is her sanctuary, but also her unwatned prison. The slow and lonlely feeling staying within can almost crumble a person's mentality...and i dont even have the right to cry my sorrows away..."

If Miss W cant cry about her sorrow, shes destined to suffer this syndrome and she can never leave that prison of hers... her life was lived in a meaningful way... if crying wasnt disallowed for her... i guess probably she wont even choose to laugh instead.

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All of us here in a better state than Miss W. We can cry when we're suffereing where it hurts. Laugh in tears when we're happy. We have a choice to do both, but if anyone choose to cry for sorrow, then arent u wasting your tears on something that's not even worth crying on?

C'mon, my dear partners... Whatever happens in life, face it with a smile. Cry in happiness. Neva in sadness. For doing so, will onlybe an abomination to the spirit of life! And that my friend, is true happiness.
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"In choosing between being happy or sad, y would anyone choose to be sad? Aint u using someone else's mistake to make yourself miserable?"

Kazism <~OnE~>

Reunion is going no where. I'm starting a totally new one called kazism. Its all stated in the title anyway. A new chapter in a new life! *grins* Ah well, this one will be all about the theories i feel.. make sense. It all started with the previous post i guess. I'll try to write stories and theories~ Enjoy dudes~ Below will be another of my kazism~

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Standing by the corridor's balcony, waving her hands in the wind, swaying her head from side to side and occasionally make some "eee Ooooo" muffled sound. Her eyes stared intently into blankness, as if she's deep in thoughts. Sometimes, she'll frown as if some invisible guy was scolding her through the wind. Shes mute, but she has great listening power. Whenever anyone guessed correctly what shes trying to convey with her non verbal cues, she will always jump for joy or whine in glee~ This is always a peculiar sight.

Say hello to Yuki. She suffered from brain concussion when she was young and that made her lost her sense of balance and also her gift of speech. Yuki grew up with scorns and discrimination for her handicapped. Many people stayed away from her cuz of her difference. It was really a terrible and sad childhood experience... Regardless of this, she stood tall and firm. She fought back her tears and pain in her heart and stood firm in what she believed in!

Through the years of suffering and pain, she finally got her masters and she got a job as a lecturer in one of the local university. Her students used to stare at her in curious awe, many of which wondered how did she ever got through her life by far. One student in her class, Ikuy, one day ask Yuki in class... she exclaimed "Miss Yuki, u've been like tat since young... isnt it really painful? How do u look at yourself?"

The class went all quiet. No one spoke. Everyone felt that this question was gonna kill Yuki's confidence and optimism... but Yuki pondered for awhile... and then turned to write on the whiteboard. This was what she wrote...

1)I think i'm cute
2)I've parents who stand by me at all times
3)Ive a pair of nice slender legs
4)GOd has never given up on me, which shows he loves me wholeheartedly
5)I can paint and i can write reports well
6)I've 5 cute cats at home
7)....
8)...etc.

At this time, the class was quiet, they thought that Yuki was actually trying to feign strong... Yuki looked at the class intently and suddenly turned to write something on the white board... It says... "I only see what i have, not what i dont!"

The class went into uproar and wild applause resounded throughout the class. THey were so impressed at Yuki's words! Yuki stood there.. smiling and her eyes almost disappeared... she stood there, thought handicapped, but her presence is the proof of "i shall never be defeataed" mentality!

Ikuy sat there. Tears came down uncontrollably. She has never seen such beautiful phrases in her life b4. And At that point of time, Yuki looked like a giant!

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Dear partners, Yuki was strong. She never give up to any sufferings. She gave no excuse for her own handicapped. She was firm with her life goals and she knew wat kept her going. She stayed away from anything thats gonna stop her from achieving her goal. If only people would stop ridiculing themself for being inferior, then this world would have less persimism and more success stories. What u have is the system, treasure it! What u dont have cant be helped, unless u help yourself.

Reunion ~Nine~

Today's blog will be about some stuffs i feel like writing. Lately, its seldom that i feel like writing about common sense and wisdom, so please give me some applause for my effort below. I've wasted tons of kilo joules to get it out. So pls ponder over it and trust me, if it doesnt make sense to u, then u're juz plain dumb. =ppp ah well, bon appetite monsiuer!

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Long time ago, somewhere in London, they tore down alot of old buildings to make way for new road buildings... But then, the construction work to the road has never started soon after the old buildings were torn down...

One fine day, some environment scientist came to the road site, they found out that the place, which used to be covered by the old buildings,, started growing grass and flowers... life was blooming on the construction site. But the weird thing is.. some of the plants werent species that belong to England... those species r normally found in tropical countries.
The old buildings were actually built 100 of years ago, they have been there, covering the plot of land for so many years, and it now seemed nearly impossible for the land to have any more plants growing on it... But the miracle is.. since they teared down the old buildings... many plants grew again, they were so alive and they sparkled in the morning sun!
The seeds that grew there is really woderful, they are nature's wonder, they are so small and fragile and yet they can grow to become wonderful plants... even when they've been suppressed under the cemented buildings for hundreds of years, they still came up with life when the buildings were torn down. If a seed can do this, then imagine... human should be much stronger than them when they meet problems in life.

There was once, a group of explorers went into the sahara desert, b4 long, they were lost in the desert, they were so thirsty, everyone drank all their water. At this time, the leader took out a flask and told them... "this is the last flask of water, but no one should drink it until we leave the desert!" And so, everyone was focused on drinking the water and getting out of the desert tat they forgotten about their suffering, the heat, the pain, the thirst and giving up. it became their goal! Everyone's face was different, their face turned from a dejected one to one beaming with hope! Finally, the exploring group got out of the deset, and they got out of death's claw... everyone scrambled to the leader 4 the water tats promised! The leader looked at them plainly... unscrwed the flask..and wat came out was... SAND.
As a matter of fact, there's no such thing as "NO HOPE" in life. As long as u have hope in your heart, everything will become so simple and bright! Irregardless of the suffering and rejections, but as long as u have the mentality to persevere and to succeed... one fine day, my fellow friends.. one fine day u can leave them behind!
This is life, as long as the will to fight is there, the guts is there, wateva negatives or unhappiness can be settled

The sky at times, is cloudy, the waves at times, is stormy, soil may not be fertile all the time... but irregardless of all this, life will return as long as hope is there. So my fellow partners, when u're down, dont be sad, dont ever fucking give up! Persevere! If winter has come.. isnt spring around the corner?

"Feel the GUTS in you. Success is just a grasp away!"

Reunion ~Eight~

I'm So FUCKING STONED!

Yea... quite actually.

As a matter of fact, i've been deep in my thoughts lately. My face betrayed my emotions and my partners around me has been wondering what got into me. I used to be a god darn chatter box who loves to talk about nothing but craps. Lately, i've gone all serious and god knows what crazie things i've exclaimed to others around me.

Ah well. FUCK IT.

Im here to vent. And i dont care. I dont give a damn. I dont give a nickle! I... yea, whatever! *smirks*

Siren said i've lost the game. She did. I guess i deserve it. I wasnt around when i was suppose to. I played my moves wrongly agianst my will. Distance was there. Guess that when one is vulnerable, the absence will grows and losing the game is juz an inch away. Oh well. *shrugs* Cant blame anyone. I've to be responsible for my future anyway.

~supercalifragilisticespealidoscious~

Ok, that was juz a commercial break. Well, i noticed i've been procrastinating for too long since my last post. Trust me, i'm aware of it! Consciously being aware of it. (haha, as a matter of fact, juz...) Well, at least im typing soemthing now.. but i need to write something fruitful and fulfiling tho. K... I'm MSNing with JJ now... Ryan is on the other one. Obviously, i'm trying to type something for the sake of typing... I really wonder where did all my ideas went. I used to ponder alot and have tons off neat ideas... but lately, i seemed to be losing it... i'm kinda like.. losing myself slowly... I juz bought a Sony Ericsson W810i .. about 2 weeks ago. Nice phone. Satin black, candy bar... coupled with sexy orange designs. Its awesome. the design is orgasmic~ haha I've actually wanted to get the w900i instead, the only problem is... tat one is too bulky! The white w900i is another godly phone! Sexy! WooT! Ah well, i still prefer smaller phones. My partners was actually complaining that how come i didnt get a smart phone which is actually more bzness-like.. like the Dopod 818pro or something.... I beg to differ tho. I'm still young, i'm still fit to hold a SE walkman phone! I'm YOUNG!!! Woot! Shoot me! Sue me! Wahahahah! *ahem.. i noticed i've gone abit haywire*

~Oh yea, did i mention i boycott Nokia!!~

Its 3:30am. I'm suppose to be in bed. Ive tons of things to do later. Ive gotta action! I've gotta think less, do more. Thinking too much will lead to paralysis! And paralysis will lead to nothing being done. Which is sad. In between thinking too much and doing nothing and thinking too little and doing something, i prefer the latter cuz at least ive experienced something. Money cant buy experience... unless u talk about games of cuz. haha! I cheated for more experience in neverwinternights~ haha. I'm a cheating bastard! woohoooo! I'm loving it!

God, i've so many dates lately, and i didnt have the time to attend them. Sad but true. Those SAD(single and desperate) would have my head to know that i've turned down many dates initiated by females becuz of my own busy-ness lately. (i know know... no such word but heck care!) Ah well, i'm gonna earned those back in the future anyway! Peace.

Zuru zuru! I'm so random today.

"wei wei wei wei wei wei! When would u respond to me? Wei wei!"