20 --Some RL stuffs--
Hangover.
Yea, thats wat i'm suffering from half the day today. U c, yesterday night, i was out with my frens... namely Ivan Jay and JinLing. 4 of us actually went to Asiaworks to have a look at what all the Hoo Haas was all about. Followed by... a trip to phileo damansara, a pub called.. ermm.. forgot, but its in the RUSH area. We all played dice game and have to bottoms up! I actually vomitted though~ haha.. but i did it in secrecy!heheheh!!!! Anyway, back to the Asiaworks thingy, Jinling actually finished the basic training in it, and her bf, Jay is joining the course in a forthnight. Apparently, the course is suppose to be a life saving course where they teach u of wat to do and wat not to do for your life. It actually teaches u to do wat many others cant do,... ermm. rather, ... it teaches u how to take note of things around u where others dont take note of... =)
And when i was there, i met this veteran there... we had a conversation and she seemed to be oberving my every movements and actions and speech... I dont know whether she knows that i know that she is observing me... but one thing is for sure, i proped a question to her at the end of it... which kinda startled her.. i actually exclaimed "So wat do u think about me then? Give me a critical criticism!"
As to my expectations, she was actually very prepared to comment about me... as a matter of fact, i could somehow sense that she was gonna enjoy it.. haha ... well, she said the following..
"I think u are a very smart person, from the beginning til now, u held yourself really well, wateva i put forward to u, u always have a defensive mechanism to escape! This proves tat u do read alot, and u know wat? i think u read too much and used your brain too much... until u're so self centred and full of yourself. U think u're always right, thats y u actually are able to rebuke each of my constructive criticism earlier on, instead of listening to them and reflect it to your life, u've actually fend yourself away from all of it and used different theories to supress them! It must be lonely to be u, since IMO, i think u wouldnt have many frens with that kinda self denfence mechanism u have... perhaps its automatic in u, it triggers in u most of the time without u noticing it! In fact, i think it has beome a subconscious u!"
Well well well, so much so for a 1st meeting and the criticism she put forward isnt really nice. Though so, i still accept wat she've said,... i admit i love to be right. When ppl put forward a point of view, more often than not, i would rebuke them! If today the topic was black, i would argue white! If another day, it was white, i would argue black! Thats how i am, i know the silly me, regardless, i still indulge in it.. I sometimes wonder y... Then while i was pondering and arguing in my head about wat she said... (well, my brain is like a sponge, cept that everything that goes through would flow off as soon as its filtered, wait.. call me a verbal filter then! =p)
ok.. she continued... while she see that i'm writhing with mental agony...
"Well, u put forward alot of theoretical points.. i accept them.. but u want to know something? No one would give a damn wat u have to say! U know that? Out in the workplace, u think those ppl out there give a damn to wat u say? Dream on or come back to real world!!! As the Britons love to say, WAKE UP JACK!!!! u are currently utilising your brain very well, but those are definitely not coming from your heart~ If one day, u can utilise both of them, i can forsee that u'll be a very powerful personnel in the workforce and relationship wise!"
She stopped here, and i suspect that she ran out of thoughts, or perhaps she's repairing her battering ram, since the castle gates i've up is pretty sturdy~ haha! anyway, for the 1st time in many years, i've not rebuked cuz u know wat, she's pretty right about me, and u know wat, i like her for it! =p weird.... but true! =)
Anyway, she finished her talk by saying...
"What exactly is your intention? Have u ever keep track of your intentions and ask your self consciously ... wat is your intention? We all have intentions, most ppl choose to take it for granted... wat i've said here may sound simple, but try it and c.. see how it goes for u! Its actually simple as ABC, its ppl who made it look tough! We all spend most of our life ranting at how things dont work for us, so y dont we all use those energy to remedy the problem? My last words are actually... DO IT.. yes, its that simple.. DO IT.
She actually kinda hit the jackpot when she said things about me. I love to debate over stuffs that is put forward by another. I do it juz for fun, in fact, i think i'm juz doing all this in circles to no ends! It doesnt end anywhere for me. In the end, i attain nothing but disatisfied dudes thinking i'm someone so fucking full of himself!
What do they expect anyway? I'm no god, i'm learning. Still, wat that lady told me since last night, its still ringing in my head... til now.. and i think it did play an impact in my life! =) Perhaps... that would bring me to the pinnacle of success. heh! heh!
oh well, things are heating. I need more fuel to move my engines! Juz need some grease to go with it!
Sometimes, dont think too much, cuz while u're thinking, u're making decisions in your head... a roleplay that is dominated by your own inferiority! And also, time is slipping by as u think! So when the time comes, juz go for it! Thinking too much without action is silly, thinking too little without actions is procrastination! Thinking too much with alot of action is tiring, thinking too little with action is ignorance!
Yea, i know thats confusing, take sometime to digest them! hehhe~ Anyway, the bottom line is... Thinking enough with actions should be the way to go.. and if i can give specific answers to this, i can actually sponsor motivation class and leak this out to the world for a fee and make myself a billionaire! =p
...anyhow, ja ne....
"talk is cheap"
Yea, thats wat i'm suffering from half the day today. U c, yesterday night, i was out with my frens... namely Ivan Jay and JinLing. 4 of us actually went to Asiaworks to have a look at what all the Hoo Haas was all about. Followed by... a trip to phileo damansara, a pub called.. ermm.. forgot, but its in the RUSH area. We all played dice game and have to bottoms up! I actually vomitted though~ haha.. but i did it in secrecy!heheheh!!!! Anyway, back to the Asiaworks thingy, Jinling actually finished the basic training in it, and her bf, Jay is joining the course in a forthnight. Apparently, the course is suppose to be a life saving course where they teach u of wat to do and wat not to do for your life. It actually teaches u to do wat many others cant do,... ermm. rather, ... it teaches u how to take note of things around u where others dont take note of... =)
And when i was there, i met this veteran there... we had a conversation and she seemed to be oberving my every movements and actions and speech... I dont know whether she knows that i know that she is observing me... but one thing is for sure, i proped a question to her at the end of it... which kinda startled her.. i actually exclaimed "So wat do u think about me then? Give me a critical criticism!"
As to my expectations, she was actually very prepared to comment about me... as a matter of fact, i could somehow sense that she was gonna enjoy it.. haha ... well, she said the following..
"I think u are a very smart person, from the beginning til now, u held yourself really well, wateva i put forward to u, u always have a defensive mechanism to escape! This proves tat u do read alot, and u know wat? i think u read too much and used your brain too much... until u're so self centred and full of yourself. U think u're always right, thats y u actually are able to rebuke each of my constructive criticism earlier on, instead of listening to them and reflect it to your life, u've actually fend yourself away from all of it and used different theories to supress them! It must be lonely to be u, since IMO, i think u wouldnt have many frens with that kinda self denfence mechanism u have... perhaps its automatic in u, it triggers in u most of the time without u noticing it! In fact, i think it has beome a subconscious u!"
Well well well, so much so for a 1st meeting and the criticism she put forward isnt really nice. Though so, i still accept wat she've said,... i admit i love to be right. When ppl put forward a point of view, more often than not, i would rebuke them! If today the topic was black, i would argue white! If another day, it was white, i would argue black! Thats how i am, i know the silly me, regardless, i still indulge in it.. I sometimes wonder y... Then while i was pondering and arguing in my head about wat she said... (well, my brain is like a sponge, cept that everything that goes through would flow off as soon as its filtered, wait.. call me a verbal filter then! =p)
ok.. she continued... while she see that i'm writhing with mental agony...
"Well, u put forward alot of theoretical points.. i accept them.. but u want to know something? No one would give a damn wat u have to say! U know that? Out in the workplace, u think those ppl out there give a damn to wat u say? Dream on or come back to real world!!! As the Britons love to say, WAKE UP JACK!!!! u are currently utilising your brain very well, but those are definitely not coming from your heart~ If one day, u can utilise both of them, i can forsee that u'll be a very powerful personnel in the workforce and relationship wise!"
She stopped here, and i suspect that she ran out of thoughts, or perhaps she's repairing her battering ram, since the castle gates i've up is pretty sturdy~ haha! anyway, for the 1st time in many years, i've not rebuked cuz u know wat, she's pretty right about me, and u know wat, i like her for it! =p weird.... but true! =)
Anyway, she finished her talk by saying...
"What exactly is your intention? Have u ever keep track of your intentions and ask your self consciously ... wat is your intention? We all have intentions, most ppl choose to take it for granted... wat i've said here may sound simple, but try it and c.. see how it goes for u! Its actually simple as ABC, its ppl who made it look tough! We all spend most of our life ranting at how things dont work for us, so y dont we all use those energy to remedy the problem? My last words are actually... DO IT.. yes, its that simple.. DO IT.
She actually kinda hit the jackpot when she said things about me. I love to debate over stuffs that is put forward by another. I do it juz for fun, in fact, i think i'm juz doing all this in circles to no ends! It doesnt end anywhere for me. In the end, i attain nothing but disatisfied dudes thinking i'm someone so fucking full of himself!
What do they expect anyway? I'm no god, i'm learning. Still, wat that lady told me since last night, its still ringing in my head... til now.. and i think it did play an impact in my life! =) Perhaps... that would bring me to the pinnacle of success. heh! heh!
oh well, things are heating. I need more fuel to move my engines! Juz need some grease to go with it!
Sometimes, dont think too much, cuz while u're thinking, u're making decisions in your head... a roleplay that is dominated by your own inferiority! And also, time is slipping by as u think! So when the time comes, juz go for it! Thinking too much without action is silly, thinking too little without actions is procrastination! Thinking too much with alot of action is tiring, thinking too little with action is ignorance!
Yea, i know thats confusing, take sometime to digest them! hehhe~ Anyway, the bottom line is... Thinking enough with actions should be the way to go.. and if i can give specific answers to this, i can actually sponsor motivation class and leak this out to the world for a fee and make myself a billionaire! =p
...anyhow, ja ne....
"talk is cheap"
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