23 --Another Lecture! heh! I'm Lovin' it!--

In the next 2 years, i want to at least achieve something of monetary value which can propel me to my steps to attaining financial freedom. That meaning... I need a vehicle to do that, A REALLY SUPERB vehicle if u ask me. Many ppl gave me the wide eyed bewildered stare whenever i tell em this~ ANd y would they do that? Its because onlya handful of ppl who are super lucky or innovative could achieve that, especially at such a young age. U have to be a economical prodigy in order to achieve this~ =)

Legacy is created by ppl. Its acknowledged by ppl! Its awed by people. But in the end, who is the one who's doing the job of being the top man from all walks of life? THe answer is simple isnt it? Its anyone that is determined enough with their WANTS and walked their goals through with utmost disciplne!

Something actually hit me on my face lately when i accompanied my cousin(who is a 6 year old kid) to the playground. The weather was fine, the playground is the usual type u see in any taman area. Anyway, there's this really high monkey bar that u have to climb ... it stretches from one place to another and its actually quite a distance from each end. Well, any normal 6 yr old wouldnt be fully developed physically to accomplish this whole escapade. But guess what, though the small fella was afraid of falling off the monkey bar, he was determined to finish the course of obstacle that obstructs him from his goal. Yes, many of u may be laughing and scoffing at this scenario, it may seem trivial to u. But IF u ponder properly, we all have different targets at different time of our life. U cant compare someone who is not accustomed to such attempts to not fail when they do such a thing for the 1st time in their life. My cousin's attempt to cross the monkey bar may seem like a very small matter to u, but to him, its the world.

So... this whole scenario got me thinking. If i aint mistaken, as a child, we would look at the sky and dream of scaling the stars and play on the moon. We would dream of flying. We would want to be superman. We would aspire to do all the impossible things. Silly as it may be, but oddly enough, as time goes by, the society taught us that such actions juz aint practical. When something isnt practical, y would anyone wanna do them? And after many failed attempts and lectures from our seniors in life, we would gradually form the mentality tat child's thoughts are simply childish... childish .. menaing unaccomplishable.. and in the ends, we all give up. So... we find alternatives throughout our life and in the end... more often that not, we slump to the dark areas and be a slave of negative mentality.

Now now, no one would admit it. As a matter of fact, many ppl would say that i'm juz fucking bullshitting here. Well, we're all free to have our own opinion... but if u ask me, i love critical thinking. I dare to admit that i'm a embodiment of negative mentality now. I'm trying to change this fact now, i'm trying be aware of my surrounding. I dont wanan live my life unconscious... i wanna be oblivious of wat i'm suppose to do... thus, a change is a must!

So.. y compare myself to a child now? Well, if a child who attempts to scale the monkey bar is at his 100%, of cuz i've gotta talk and compare about something which is 100% to my standard, no point comparing myself straight off isnt it? It juz isnt fair! We cant compare Ringgit to US dollars isnt it? If u compare PPP, at least its still acceptable. Thats wat i'm using now, Product Pricing Parity. OKOK.. anyway... lets move on...

Ok... letme try to phrase it in my own words.. ... slogan... ook, lets c... how about

DREAM IT
BELIEVE IT
WALK IT

Wooot... i think this is so cool! hehe~

alright, let me put them in explianatory notes.

Dream it. Everything starts with a dream. All thoughts of "WANTS" come from your brain. With that, dream is something so-called non achievable to many ppl isnt it? Dream is a dream.. becuz more often than not, dream wouldnt be ahievable. But in my context, without a dream, the individual wouldnt have any purpose of life isnt it? we all have a higher want in our life... GOALS ARE THINGS THAT WE CAN ACHIEVE. So y bother dreaming about others stuff if u wanna compare goals and dreams together? Since goals is somehow achievable with some effort, i dont want to use goals as the point of discussion~ Its only when a dream is close to be being achieved, thats where the whole satisfaction kicks in isnt it? Dreaming is cool. Dreaming about impossible is cooler. But in the end, dreaming is dreaming, building castles in the air is typical. For those who manage to do otherwise and lay the foundation to take the 1st step for the castle, thats the beginning of a legacy. A legacy u can call your own.

Believe it. OKOK... the case is simple. No point wanting to have something without the faith in it. U're who u are depending on how u wanan perceive yourself. We are all brought up to think and feel the way we are now due to peer influence, environment knowledge and of cuz, mental input from all sorts of experiences. So if u believe u're a fucking useless bastard who cant do anything more than masturbate in the room the whole day and whining on y u cant get a gal to screw and service u, then u are the god damn bastard u perceive u are. Lets say u go out and go for it, cuz u want it and u believe yourself that u can achieve the desire, u will definitely get it done~ Somehow or rather~ isnt it? IT all boils down to one thing, how much u want it and the discipline u have for yourself. Oh, btw, i know that my example here isnt really pleasant to most ppl, but at least i'm putting a valid point through now isnt it? Ok, i, gonna get cheesy here, and here's a quote i'm gonna throw to the floor " If u fail to plan, u plan to fail." A plan is a plan on paper is always a plan until u do something to it. Lets face it, if we all can attain wat we want after we write something on the fucking piece of white A4 paper, then there's no fucking point to stay alive isnt it? And of course, fairy god mother is another myth which are for suckers! And if u believe that fairygod mother is gonna work, its gonna work~ How?? The question is how?? haha, well, fairygodmother is your plan, her magic is your synergy, the fruit is the reward u reap! Meaning the wish came true~ So.. in another words, without a proper plan to keep track, and also, without the faith and motivation to abide by it, everything is cheap. Talk is cheap! And if life is so cheap, i wouldnt be here typing this now. Yea... whats new right? haha..

Ok... Walk it. I can give u all the whole fucking hoo haas on wat to do but would u do it~? I can achieve millions in juz mere 2~3years but so wat? It doesnt concern u~ nor mary, nor sally, nor jack, nor john, nor george bush, nor clinton, nor blair, nor matsushita~ .. nor gandhi! OKOK, u get my fucking point. The whole matter is, The whole thing all depends on yourself. HAha.., so simple isnt it? Simple right? Actually, sad to tell u peeps, its that simple. Ther'es a famous quote that ppl gave... "give a man a fish, and he can eat it for a day, teach a man to fish, and he can eat it for a lifetime~" Well, ironically, even such an age old quote would be totally misunderstood by ppl. If today, u go out and tell ppl this quote, they will usually give u the reply.. "DUH" Well, the next thing u tell them is.. "SO WTF are u gonna do about it?" Xcuses are always given unknowingly to protect that person ... to defend himself. That person can give u 1million and one good xcuse. He can also give u facts about it.. believe me, when someone is on the defensive, nothing u say could wave him off the stuck up hole he saved for himself. Futhermore, that person would even talk u to his side... And i'm sur eu can guess wat happens.. when 2 person is on the defensive, the supposedly conversation turns into one hella havoc~ The milk will turn bad. The sunny weather will darken.. etc. Success to ppl varies, but in the ends, if u dont walk it, its juz another plan fit for the shredding machine. No point storing them cuz in the near future, something else would be dreamt upon, overriding it.. and so on and so forth.

The bottom line is, It all starts with a dream. THe battle is half won with a well planned proposal. And last but not least, a well planned proposal would always juz be a dream until u go out and execute it. So wat are u waiting for?

I'll rap this up with a story.

"there's once a wise old man who stays on top of the hill. There's 2 brothers who neva believed in him... Though the wise old man helped solved the problem of everyone whom seeked him for help, the brothers persisit in thinking that the old man isnt the smartest.

So one fine day, among the 2 brother, the younger one came up with a plan, he excitedly told his elder brother about it...

"Yo bro, i FOUND this plan tat we can totally outsmart the wise old man! He's definitely gonna fall for the trick and we're gonna be famous for being able to outsmart him! Afterall, he's a the famous wise old man!"

They discussed it and was confident that the wise old man is gona fall for the trick! So the next day, they caught a bird and scrambled up the hill, eager to proof that wise old man isnt all tat wise afterall. When nearing the familiar house atop the hill, the Elder brother revised the plan with his younger brother... " ok, we hold this bird behind our backs, make sure the wise old man cant see it, so we'll ask him.. which hand would the bird be, if he guessed the wrong hand, we'll kill the bird! If he said, right, u juz moved the bird to your left hand and kill it, If he said otherwise, u do vice versa!"

Pleased with themselves, they neared the old man and asked...

"Wise old man, we have now a bird in our hands, the life of it depends on u! Guess which hand it is in, if u got it wrong, we'll kill it and u're responsible for the bird's life forever!"

The brothers were grinning in anticipation that finally, this time they are gonna outmsmart the wise old man.

Finally, the wise old man looked at them with a cool serene gaze , stroked his beard and replied,

"The life of the bird, lies in your own hands. Same goes for your life. U can twist the facts howeva u like it, afterall, its your life, but remember that, wateva u do today, its gonna reflect on wat u r tomorrow. So, the answer to your riddle is, the life of the bird, lies in your hands. Be it left or right, its all solely up to u."

With that, the brothers went all speechless. The tricked failed.

So whats' new in life? U've heard everything and anything from everyone and anyone. So whats keeping u? And the same reply would come from most ppl...

"I dont know..."

Again, whats new? Rather, shouldnt u be asking yourself.. "whats not?"

"What drives u?"

22 --M3--

erm.. yea.. the title.. M3...

if people dont know wats that, then let me enlighten u about it~ M3 is a vehicle! Its not a car! But its a vehicle! Its a BMW. Its a beauty on the road. It dwarfs many other sedan on the road, for those who dont know well about this, juz think 5 series with a sporty look.

So wat u say? Its a superb vehicle thats so sleek and cool.. it makes ppl turn heads wherever u go! If u wanna know more or have a visual indication on it, it can be found here... http://www.bmw.com.my/products/m3.htm

Its a beauty isnt it? =)

My fren poped the question to me today...

"Do u wanna own this?"

"erm.. yea, DuH!"

"i'm gonna get it in 2 months."

"... neat. How?"

"Well, let me show u how its done.. in a perfectly legal way... hehe... seeing is believing!"

"Dude... MLM again isit?"

"... haha... when i get it, i'll tell you!"

"##**&&!@, mutafuka!! U fucking bastard!!!!!!!"

"tough luck dude, wait and see, perhaps i'll let u have a 1st touch when i got it!"

.... Anyway.. thats about it! i dont wanna elaborate more since the main point is already out. Well, M3.. if i aint mistaken, cost about 680,000. 7 series cost about 750,000-- 7 series is really a superb car, comfortable and superbably designed to perfection, though abit bulky, but i think it looks awesome and intimidating on da road.

Now, how is my fren gonna conjure 680k in 2 months?

So many possibilities, so little time.

Anyway, i finally found my way.

So Audi TT is out of my list. Maybe one of my sub cars, but definitely not my main car now. M3 is. If not m3, i'll take...... 7 series~! haha.. its also a bmw series.

i'm actually not a big fan of bmw. I'm not a big fan of anything in particular either.

The bottom line is, as long as the car feels great... moves great, works great,looks great, i'm satisfied. =)

Nema!

"sorry, 2day mind blankies"

21 --A Turning Point--

Ahem... i'm at the crossroad.

Its solemn.

No one should affect the path u chose since its your path thats being walked on by your own foot.

Its usually a dilemma. Thats life.

Decision? Still pondering.

Anyway, i juz found out that my best friend has changed his alliance of interest to another. In another words, he defected to something that conflicts with my interest. He did it without my knowledge... somehow, my brain tells me that he has the right to do that and nothing in the god damn world can change that fact, but .. but... i dont feel comfortable about it. What happened to all the goals and dreams we shared in the past? Is this all part of life? I know that somehow or another, we will all seperate in life, but... but... its juz feeling weird now... really weird! Its uncomfortable.

I'll have to walk this journey with new found allies. The road will be a lil empty-- i think thats only gonna last for awhile if i understand me enough. The roads will still be walked, but it wont be paved into cemented one... or become a highway. It may turned out to the a mud soaken road... But even so, it still lingers. Yea.. it does.

Perhaps time will tell. Perhaps it wouldnt, whateva happens, time waits for no tide. Summer still comes, winter still goes. Moon still rotate with season and i cant do a single shit about it. *Shrugs*

The solution? Juz fucking get over the god damn fact and start walking. People are moving towards their path in their own way. It does mean much now, but for the future, it makes little difference. The feeling will go numb and go away in time.

Sadly, memories will too.

When there's a beginning, there's bound to be an end. Juz that the ending may not necessarily be similar to wat we see on movies and scripts. It aint morbid like those of shakespeares, but it aint no fairytale either. Whateva it is, the ending could actually be edited. It all depends on one whether u wanna edit it or not. GIving in to the script may mean less work, but it also means u're not getting the ending u want. But some scripts may be torn and lost foreva, even so, try rewriting it, substitutingting a new one into it...or try pasting it back.. though the torned scar would foreva be there... *shrugs*

... I have so many things i wanna do and learn. I wanna learn how to play the electric guitar, i wanan learn how to sing, i wanna learn how to dance like MJ. I wanna go learn ball dancing, i wanna learn how to skate like a pro! I wanna learn how to hip hop like a pro! I wanna.. have my audi TT b4 25.

All of them are there... but wat am i gonna do to get them?

Solutions are all around, which would i do to achieve it?

My mind has an idea now. Im working at it.

Conclusion? Retirement b4 30. =)

Now... this is life.

So who said Solomon is great? =p

"It all starts with a dream!"

20 --Some RL stuffs--

Hangover.

Yea, thats wat i'm suffering from half the day today. U c, yesterday night, i was out with my frens... namely Ivan Jay and JinLing. 4 of us actually went to Asiaworks to have a look at what all the Hoo Haas was all about. Followed by... a trip to phileo damansara, a pub called.. ermm.. forgot, but its in the RUSH area. We all played dice game and have to bottoms up! I actually vomitted though~ haha.. but i did it in secrecy!heheheh!!!! Anyway, back to the Asiaworks thingy, Jinling actually finished the basic training in it, and her bf, Jay is joining the course in a forthnight. Apparently, the course is suppose to be a life saving course where they teach u of wat to do and wat not to do for your life. It actually teaches u to do wat many others cant do,... ermm. rather, ... it teaches u how to take note of things around u where others dont take note of... =)

And when i was there, i met this veteran there... we had a conversation and she seemed to be oberving my every movements and actions and speech... I dont know whether she knows that i know that she is observing me... but one thing is for sure, i proped a question to her at the end of it... which kinda startled her.. i actually exclaimed "So wat do u think about me then? Give me a critical criticism!"

As to my expectations, she was actually very prepared to comment about me... as a matter of fact, i could somehow sense that she was gonna enjoy it.. haha ... well, she said the following..

"I think u are a very smart person, from the beginning til now, u held yourself really well, wateva i put forward to u, u always have a defensive mechanism to escape! This proves tat u do read alot, and u know wat? i think u read too much and used your brain too much... until u're so self centred and full of yourself. U think u're always right, thats y u actually are able to rebuke each of my constructive criticism earlier on, instead of listening to them and reflect it to your life, u've actually fend yourself away from all of it and used different theories to supress them! It must be lonely to be u, since IMO, i think u wouldnt have many frens with that kinda self denfence mechanism u have... perhaps its automatic in u, it triggers in u most of the time without u noticing it! In fact, i think it has beome a subconscious u!"

Well well well, so much so for a 1st meeting and the criticism she put forward isnt really nice. Though so, i still accept wat she've said,... i admit i love to be right. When ppl put forward a point of view, more often than not, i would rebuke them! If today the topic was black, i would argue white! If another day, it was white, i would argue black! Thats how i am, i know the silly me, regardless, i still indulge in it.. I sometimes wonder y... Then while i was pondering and arguing in my head about wat she said... (well, my brain is like a sponge, cept that everything that goes through would flow off as soon as its filtered, wait.. call me a verbal filter then! =p)

ok.. she continued... while she see that i'm writhing with mental agony...

"Well, u put forward alot of theoretical points.. i accept them.. but u want to know something? No one would give a damn wat u have to say! U know that? Out in the workplace, u think those ppl out there give a damn to wat u say? Dream on or come back to real world!!! As the Britons love to say, WAKE UP JACK!!!! u are currently utilising your brain very well, but those are definitely not coming from your heart~ If one day, u can utilise both of them, i can forsee that u'll be a very powerful personnel in the workforce and relationship wise!"

She stopped here, and i suspect that she ran out of thoughts, or perhaps she's repairing her battering ram, since the castle gates i've up is pretty sturdy~ haha! anyway, for the 1st time in many years, i've not rebuked cuz u know wat, she's pretty right about me, and u know wat, i like her for it! =p weird.... but true! =)

Anyway, she finished her talk by saying...

"What exactly is your intention? Have u ever keep track of your intentions and ask your self consciously ... wat is your intention? We all have intentions, most ppl choose to take it for granted... wat i've said here may sound simple, but try it and c.. see how it goes for u! Its actually simple as ABC, its ppl who made it look tough! We all spend most of our life ranting at how things dont work for us, so y dont we all use those energy to remedy the problem? My last words are actually... DO IT.. yes, its that simple.. DO IT.

She actually kinda hit the jackpot when she said things about me. I love to debate over stuffs that is put forward by another. I do it juz for fun, in fact, i think i'm juz doing all this in circles to no ends! It doesnt end anywhere for me. In the end, i attain nothing but disatisfied dudes thinking i'm someone so fucking full of himself!

What do they expect anyway? I'm no god, i'm learning. Still, wat that lady told me since last night, its still ringing in my head... til now.. and i think it did play an impact in my life! =) Perhaps... that would bring me to the pinnacle of success. heh! heh!

oh well, things are heating. I need more fuel to move my engines! Juz need some grease to go with it!

Sometimes, dont think too much, cuz while u're thinking, u're making decisions in your head... a roleplay that is dominated by your own inferiority! And also, time is slipping by as u think! So when the time comes, juz go for it! Thinking too much without action is silly, thinking too little without actions is procrastination! Thinking too much with alot of action is tiring, thinking too little with action is ignorance!

Yea, i know thats confusing, take sometime to digest them! hehhe~ Anyway, the bottom line is... Thinking enough with actions should be the way to go.. and if i can give specific answers to this, i can actually sponsor motivation class and leak this out to the world for a fee and make myself a billionaire! =p

...anyhow, ja ne....

"talk is cheap"

19 -- HSBC--

wooot, i'm in hsbc, basically i'm currently posted at the sales mortgage executive... though it may sound nice, but i it boils down to alot of bloody work.. and dirty ones too~ tiring... cuz i've to work at 9am to at least 7pm... and i mean at least!

life now is monotonous, i go work, come back, lay dead and thats all to it! OMFG, i wont let this lying down, if this goes on, my future is ruined! My dream of retiring b4 30, and i must stick to it! No point stopping here and do nothing~ i juz gotta fight for it~ if i dont fight for it, i wont get anywhere nearer anyway! But the main point is, i'm still considered a fresh grad.. and ppl around me take me as a newbie who knows nothing. I'm gonna show them... yes, patience dude, bide your time and u will have the last laugh in due time.

I'm gonna rule, i know i'm special, i know i'm authentic, i know i can do it, i know i'm genuine~ im willing to work~ i'm gonna go for it! it boils down to juz one simple thing... "Do It"

Oh, i know, i know, thank god for me to make the fricking post short~ =)

Juz do it~ Nike~