Kazism <~EiGhTeEn~>

Ive tons to achieve. Yes, again im saying this. Im listening to Muse's Blackholes and revealations album now. Eating Pagoda peanuts and drinking F&N orange. Yes, im trying to populate my blog with words. Yes, this is silly. Grins. Thats y i love it. Double grins.

Often a times, when we're set to do something. We do it with utmost passion from the start. Yea, its like gobbling up food after uve been locked up for ten years without it. The passion keeps one alive. It keeps one going. The desire for the desirable.

As times goes, that fire will dwiwndle, juz like matchstick. Once stuck, has only few seconds of life span. I beg to differ. Even if ive little time to live, Id rather be the fire works. Even if im gonna go, i'll go with a bang and valour.

Yea. I noticed nobody would spend time reading rubbish, undecorated, with no huge boobs or angelic face of a blog like mine. If my blog has all the pornographical content and videos of drop dead gorgeous babes video fucking with some lucky bastards, i think my blog's traffic is gonna skyrocket... on a 2nd thought, probably i'll get banned and arrested for it. Hrm. ah well.

Anyway, Im not gonna stop my conquest. No one under my league will stop until i tell them to do so which is highly unliekely anyway. I have never failed to get stuffs i want when i settle my eyes on it. It didnt fail me in the past, it will not fail me now. When i want something to work, it better bloody work.

Oh, and for thos people who LOVEs to SLAM my phone without saying goodbye. I applaud u for your manners. I really do cuz i can never in this world, bring my heart to do that. Those who can do it many times, be lucky that i tolerate it cuz u're someone i care for. If not, to hell with u. But dont take me for granted. Im not nice when i give someone up. It may not mean anything to anyone tho... wateva i said now, but trust me, it means alot to me. Its not a threat, im juz expressing my displeasure.

Stuffs on my shopping list:
1) iMAC (cuz of the drop dead styling)
2) MacBook Pro (yes yes, styling)
3) Samsung NV 7 OPS or Nikon D40 (yes, i noticed their difference in genre)
4) Full tailored suit
5) Bally shoes and bag
6) 3 Raoul shirts
7) Perhaps a belt from Hermes
8) Maybe iPod (the 80GB one) or Zune
9) Mont Blanc Wallet+ a pen
10) Some Ikea furnitures for my condo.
11) Some trinklets on my fingers and hands.
12) Nokia N95
13) PS3
13) Wii
14) update later... mind blanky.

Anyway... I worked so hard, i think i deserve to reward myself with stuffs. CUZ I FUCKING WORKED FOR IT!

Anyway, toodles. Im sick with lots of things. But i'm still in one piece cuz there's more i've to achieve. Heck, i havent even state down my top5 fav. cars.

Kazism <~SeVeNtEeN~>

Okay. This is it. No more rantings this time.

Am i gonna type a legion of rhetorical nonsense again or am i juz gonna write some bullshit? Well, all i can say is that this time I'm very hungry! Im god damn famished! For wat u may ask...

Its for a car! And that car is a lexus. Its called IS250. If some of u backwater woodsman dont know watsat, let me help u visualise. Pls click on this link to view it. http://www.lexus.com/models/IS/

okok, come back here now. For those mere mortals who've already witnessed the magnificent engineering of vehicle, this is really orgasmic. Many of my peers dont understand y do i choose this model over the other more prominent brands with a better lineage of historical prestige... Well, all i can say is that... its all about the feel. I dont really have any feel for those cars. But when i set my eyes upon this car the 1st time, my heart pumping with andrenaline rush and my brains has gone all gaga. This car is an epitome of perfection. I know i know.. some ppl has criticised this car as being weird cuz it looks like its been made out of thousands of perfect parts put together that doesnt seem to fit each other. But thats wat i love about this toyota in wedding gown. Yea, i aint an idiot. I know that this is an altezza. But so wat? Its all about the built quality and the satisfaction of me owning one and driving one around. and of cuz, to be seen driving around in it. I love Toyota as a matter of fact. I do agree that there are probably alot more cars that could out shine this baby here. But hey, beauty is in the eyes of the beholder and im a sucker for this lexus.

Ok, enough said, i made my point. Lexus is the only way to go. i know that the price for this baby in m'sia isnt cheap and its even more expensive than the bmw 325i e90. also, its also more expensive than the current mercedes benz 230 avant garde. But oh man... lexus IS250 is really really ....

You get my point.

Oh Lexus Malaysia, please bring this car in. GS and LS isnt for me. I only want the IS now. So pls bring this car in. I dont want a parallel import. Thank u lord! heh!

toodles~!

Kazism <~SiXtEeN~>

Wat can i say? Im a simple guy.

To be honest, i wanna be the best.

I try my best to do what i can for all the special people around me.

But im always stuck in between. IM never good enough for anyone of them.

None of them take the effort to understand me.

Not that i dont want to deliver everything that i've said i'll try... but sometimes, its not up to me~

HECK, i havent even reward myself for such a fucking long time...

Wat am i working for? Y am i trying so hard to pls everyone?

NO one appreciates me. Instead, ive to appreciate others without fail. This sux. Honestly sux.

Im a human being. I dont work for nuts. I also want ppl to pamper me. I know thats a luxury for me now, but honestly speaking, i dont think its too much to ask for. Really.

But even with all this, i'll move on. Life has to go on.

Im gonna conquer still. The pain is now, it doesnt mean the future. Ive never done anything agaisnt my will and im happy about it. I've tried my best not to fail anyone, and thats good enough for me.

There's only one family But there's too many others who come and go. Those who're willing to understand will stay. Those who cant, leaves.

I dont blames the leavers. Its only natural.

Well, at the end of the day, i can only blame myself for not being strategic enough, or rich enough or wateva enough. But well, i hate it when ppl dont even understand my situation. They only think about theirs. Selfish bastards.

But its ok. Im so used to it. Come to think of it, there's so many people out there that i still need to help. I cant afford to be in a so shitty mood typing all this crapz.

Sry folks. After today, i wont write such stuffs anymore. I want to be a positive person. I wont let anyon bring me down. No one can smite me. NO one can judge me. Except god.

Im strong. I know im young and i know my financial capabilities is really good. There's lots of future for me. As a matter of fact, im actually a great dude! =) I luv myself. *SMILES*

Compare all u must. I dont really care anymore. Cuz im me. I work for my own beliefs. I will comprehend others, but not when they step on my tail.

Take care peeps. And HAve a great post CNY.

Kazism <~FiFtEeN~>

... What should i say?
... In fact, what do u want me to say?
... How do you want me to react?
... What has happen... happened.
... Since u've decided to indulge in it...
... One should prepared for the concequences.
... I may not be perfect.
... I may not be the best.
... I may not be a saint.
... But i definitely have a clear conscience.
... I hold myself as i should.
... I strive to be a gentleman.
... I strive to be a good business owner.
... I strive to be a good friend.
... I strive to be a good family dude.
... I want so much to give my girl the best.
... But why did situation turned out in such that i dont desire?
... Is it suppose to be?
... Is this fate?
... Are humans so fragile?
... Why do they always use so much excuse for their own folly?
... Why do they have issues within the issues?
... Why doesnt things doesnt go towards my way?
... Its disheartening, but life still goes on.
... I've to be stronger.
... The only way to be stronger is to have a heart of steel.
... I need to buckle up and pull my socks up.
... I cant afford otherwise.
... I cannot...
... Life still goes on.
... With or without.
... I will walk on.
... This is my story.
... This is my life.
... Im gonna make it the best of the best.
... Only time will tell.
... Time will tell.

Kazism <~FouRtEeN~>

The feeling of disappointment is the same as this video... Zzzz... sienz. Theres another side of midnite.

Kazism <~ThIrTeEn~>

Gazing up into the solar system,
All the stars are glued up in the sky.
I just want to twinkle for an instant.
Before i just sputter out and die.

Im jovial because im obtuse.
Scared of heights and scared of roaches.
If i wasnt so cheery,
I wouldnt be so scared of dying!

So please be gentle with me.
For im not as young as i was.
And i'll be gentle to you.
But im not as brave as i thought.
Cuz my heart looks like a moat
But its actually made of glass.

Im wide awake, waiting for my target.
Hoping for things i cannot grasp.
Insects flutter against my lamp bulbs.
I dont like the way they stare at me!

I guess i've always needed,
To be needed by someone.
Its a comfortable feeling,
To be under someone's arms!

So pls be good to me.
Trouble is sometimes,
I cant switch myself off.
When i want to do so i never do.
Because im mental.. gentle gentle...
U be gentle, be gentle...
I'll be gentle be gentle to u!

Kazism <~TweLVe~>

Look into my world...
Look into yourself...
Its stretching like a birth curse.

For the love of what you hide
Due to the bitterness inside..
"Its" growing like the pandemonium.

When u see it...seen it...
Where u feel it... felt it...
Its too much... too young...

You're so lost its eating u from inside.
Hope isnt time to roam.
The distance is far from you heart...

And it all fades away to nowhere
How much are u worth?
Cuz u cant come down to earth...

"Its" swelling but "its" unstoppable;
Cuz you've seen it... felt it...
Too much when u're just too young...

"It" destroys the spinless.
The world show that "its" real,
Wasting the last chance to come away!

Salvation. Where art thou?