Thursday, June 23, 2005

30 --Human Interactions--

My 30th post. OMFG! I've done it! Look acw, u said i wont get passed my 1st week... look wat i've achieved? Its my 30th post~!!! Wooootttt!!!!! If one persevere, he/she can do it! It doesnt matter what u say ya'know, wats important is wat i've decided to do! hee hee!

Anyway, a new found friend, his name is Latief from Indo. I have just spent the whole night crapping with him about life. And i chanced upon the topic on human interaction topic.

You see, what i told him is... that people in this world are making use of each other. Alot of people cant seem to sponge this idea into their head. They choose to use the words.. "care", "concern" "love" etc etc. to cover up for it. U c, i will give a scenario...

Lets use relationship 1st as an example. Lets say i am in a relationship with this gal. Her use to me is... that perhaps she's good in sex, which gives me physical pleasure. She's pretty, which gives me visual pleasure and a lot of pride cuz she can boost my social standing among the society. She makes me feel alive and to gauge how much i'm worth and she boost my ego and also, she keeps me away from loneliness. I wont say it aint much the same if commented the other way round except for other few minor differences.

Now, in the above scenario, i tell u wheres the care, concern and love. U care for her because u need her for sexual, mental and spiritual relief, u care to prevent her from leaving u. U show concern for the same cause. Love? well, u love her for giving u all the pleasures. Well, thats about it. We make use of one another, dont we? Its only a matter of whether we agree on the terms thats set upon or not. To walk the path of life together or not. If yes, then the couple stay together, if no, they simply spilt until they find others which has better cause and use to their life.

Now... for friendship... do i need to say more? The above example is more than ample to describe what i may be writing next. The only difference now is that there is probably no sexual relationship involved here. But nowadays, even frens have that kinda relationship. Yea, the world is getting crazy as u grow up. People aint what it seems from what we've read and meet since college. =/ Even decent friends turn to absurd beginnings. Oh well, like Latief always says.. "i try my best" or... "thats life" As for me, i do beg to differ. We can change it and shape it to our desire if we try enough. That is, if we even try at all.

Yea, whatever.


"There is a tavern in town
And there my dear love sits him down
And drinks his wine mid' laughter free
And never, NEVER thinks of me
Fare thee well, for must leave thee
Do not let this parting grieve thee
And remember that the best of friend must part"

Saturday, June 18, 2005

29 --Tsk!--

Wooot!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tis hath a long time been since i've the blog has found my essence.

Be talkative i must now.

Boredom has found me, ways have to be paved to gain entrance to utopia. Or an equivalent short term one.

Alrighty, gotta stop tat kinda weird talking or i'm really gonna lose myself soon.

Lately, everyone has been bugging me to go get myself a gal. Y? God knows y. In my 22 years of existence, ive done well with alot of female around me. Perhaps all my frens aint used to it that i've no gals around me for the past few months.. haha~ well well, all i can say is that... GET USE TO IT DUDES!

Now, i aint turning gay. Nor am i turning dysfunctional down there. Nor is my head out of sanity. I'm perfectly normal. Its just that time of the life where one has to concentrate on his career. Weird, in the past, i always wonder y some of those workaholics can do without gals. I neva did understand their mentality then though. Now, i'm so into it that i'm starting to get the hang of it all.

I dont know y, i always have this mentality that gals are only good at spending. Perhaps male chavinism has taken over me. Or .. perhaps.... Whatever the reason may be, i think that its best that i try to keep that kinda idea away from my head or gals would really be out of me for the next few years. haha~ =/

yea, i've 7 exes. That doesnt make me experienced. I came to find that those couples who could mantain their relationship for a few years... those are the ones thats the quality ones. If anyone wanna ask for experience on relationship matters, its best to ask from those ppl. Y?? Cuz they can tahan each other for so long, which makes them good in it!!! THATS Y! =p

Now, talking about patience. I, is one who have no patience in a relationship. More or less, i treat it like its a contract. I state out the rules and laws before it bagans. And more often than not, i will abide by it. And not to mention that i'm a person who never ever listen to unreasonable request!!! =p

Anyway.. i'm at a lost of words now.

Gonna just stop here. hee~

"who cares!!!"

Sunday, June 05, 2005

28 -- I Am But A Cover

Yea~ Cover!
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All you see of me is but a cover.
With covers so bright and glossy,
So very much neat and pretty.

Yet, none would ever peer inside.
For all yearnings for an outstretched embrace,
All but to no avail.

Fearful of what lies beneath,
Among the darkness i wallowed.
Amidst the ever bloating void.

If one does try turning the page,
One may find uncanny goodness in me,
And the reason for me to be me.

But none bothers to read the fine print.
To venture, to comprehend.
To gather, to relish.

Though i may even confuse me,
That i am not what i seem to be.
But a pawn of other's happiness.

Its all an act for a more pleasant life.
And it does.
For them.

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"One man's hell is another man's paradise"

PS: WoooT~!


Saturday, June 04, 2005

27 --HUES--

~H-U-E-S~
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Red is the colour of blood in massacres.
Orange is the bright flames in arson.
Yellow chrysanthemum flutter in groves.
Green ivy on the tombstones clings.
Blue... the mysterious mood of morbidity.
Indigo... the poisoned blueberries the bushes flourishes.
Black are the iris...
Like velvet deaths to the kiss.

These are the colours of utmost agony,
Bright, Natural shades that glow...
In our world.

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"The main dangers in life are the people who want to change everything--or nothing"

PS: =p=p=p=p=p=p=p=p

Thursday, June 02, 2005

26 --Infatuation--

--INFATUATION!--
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Infatuation is...
Butterflies in my tummy...
Each time she comes strolling...

Yearning to see her day by day,
Gathering the courage to say...

"HI"

Knowing if i did,
I will surely die.

Just puppy love that last not,
Something that goes by in a flash

Yet...

Lessons are not learnt.
Advices were paid no heed.

I still yearns for her still...

Ah... Infatuation~!

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"We forget because we must, not because we will."

PS: Yea, another of my crap! =)))

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

25 --Tina's Predicament--

~P-R-E-D-I-C-A-M-E-N-T~
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White freezing velvet coat,
Engulfed with gratified forlornly.

Black Swirling forgotten past,
Engulfed with anonymous obscurities.

Clear Perfect sense of colours in deception,
Underneath which lies relflected sense of certainty.

Is reality in fact fantasy?
Is fantasy in fact veracity?

Though through the uncanny replicational corollary,
Too, dulls the perfect perception of deceiving acuity.

Oh, who holds the key to utmost salvation?

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"I tore myself away from the safe comfort of certainties through my love for truth; and truth rewarded me"

PS: Another of kaz's poemic crap!! =p

24 --Dream On--

~Dream~
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In the darkest moment of my life,
You came to me like a shining star.
I was in agony.
Nobody knew or cared.
Life...
So ever sorrowful and empty.

You took me from the darkest depts,
Into your heart i melt.
Like a burning candle in the twilight,
Lonely, cold and filled with fright.

I am alive at last.
My burning heart beat ever striking fast.
Like a brid, unfolding its wings,
Taking its maiden flight.

Into the future i go.
Sure and certain.
Light has found me.
Sanctuary has found me.

Is it dream or reality?

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"Lost love is like an amputation; you survive, but theres less of you."

PS: The 1st of Kaz's poemic crap!! =p



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